it was a rainy day
and i just got to thinking
of how our lives had changed
with all the years

this room was once alive
with all your laughter
and when i heard the silence
i called you right away
now please don't say a word
hear what i say

oh, love me like the first time again
let's pretend it's never gonna end
for one last night, just hold me in the way you used to do
you know, love me like the first time and go

is it my imagination, are you lonely?
well i'm sorry but i thought you sounded sad
i'm not trying to start a fire again please listen
if you're free at all tomorrow, the next day who knows when
for the last time can we say goodbye as friends?

oh love me like the first time again
let's pretend it's never gonna end
for one last night, just hold me in the way you used to do
you know, love me like the first time and go

oh love me like the, first time again
let's pretend it's never gonna end
for one last night, just hold me in the way you used to do
you know, love me like the first time and go

Someday you’ll gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i wont even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if i cant

I know
You don’t really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
We’ll iv’e got news 4 you
I know i’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Coz someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i wont even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can tell
I’m down, and I’m not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I wont have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Co’z someday, someone’s gonna love me
The way, i wanted you to need me
Someday, someone’s gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday

One day, you may find true love 
that will last forever and ever 
'Til then you'll spend 
a lifetime wishin' one together 
You never thought he'd say goodbye 
And you will never understand the reasons why 

Heart of mine 
How will you keep from dying 
Stop reminiscing 
Who is he kissing 
Heart of mine 
Oh, what's the use in trying 
No one can mend you now

Love plays cruel games, 
you can't believe he's found another lover 
Does he miss me, 
sometimes you just can't help but wonder 
No, you can't stop the hands of time 
And you will always be the one he left behind 


Heart of mine (oh, heart of mine) 
How will you keep from dying 
Stop reminiscing 
Who is he kissing 
Heart of mine (oh, heart of mine) 
Oh, what's the use in trying 
No one can mend you now 



And you will always be the one he left behind

Heart of mine (oh, heart of mine) 
How will you keep from dying 
Stop reminiscing 
Who is he kissing 
Heart of mine (oh, heart of mine) 
Oh, what's the use in trying 
No one can mend you now 

(Oh, heart of mine) 
Heart of mine (oh, heart of mine) 
Heart of mine (oh, heart of mine) 
Oh, what's the use in trying 
No one can mend you now 

Love has taught me and Love has changed me since we've met, when I knew you were the only man I ever really loved and the only man I ever wanted to be with.  I was shocked, (You were not my type!) but I was happy.

Then my head got in the way and my ego and my false pride took over and I played games. I begin to see all the things about you I wanted to change. False pride made you feel afraid that I did not love you and this caused you to feel insecure. Now I know why: false pride does not TRUST and ego does not know true love.

When expectations grew, egotistical, selfish personality took over and the love we had became "conditional." Torn and confused and did not understand the love/hate relationship that was developing between us, we broke up.  Yet, after breaking up, I hurt every day for so long. I cried every night for several weeks. I hoped by some miracle you might intuitively know this. You did not believe the break-up might hurt me because, falsely, you believed I had no feelings for you. After the break up, I did not know where to go or what to do.

Fortunately, Love was still present and finally I did surrender and let it guide me through the hurt and the lessons I needed to learn. Gradually, everything became clearer and with the "ego" and the "false pride" out of the way, I began to grow and I came to realize my mistakes and could see where I went wrong.

In retrospect and with clarity, I can see how I actually loved you "just the way you were" - you were being yourself and that is what attracted me to you in the beginning. I wish I had never lost sight of that and I wish I had not tried to change you. If I am ever lucky enough to have you back in my life, I will never try to change you again. I will let true love direct our course.

I saw you the other day, I knew you were with someone else now and to my surprise, I became aware of the deep admiration and respect I have for you and for myself. I believe this to be an example of the "unconditional" true love I now know. I am truly sorry for the hurt in our relationship and I am truly sorry that I did not know what I did not know. But, perhaps it had to happen in order for us to be where we are now, and for me to grow.

I never want you to be hurt again. I will always believe that true love is our everlasting, unchanging guide. And I trust that it will direct the course of our lives.

LEAVING YESTERDAY BEHIND


Since you left me, I never really tried 

To put my life to where it should belong 

And I've always let the past gone by 

I'm realizing that it could be wrong 

But now I fin'lly knew 

I had to let it go 

To make way for a brighter tomorrow 

So now I'm leavin' yesterday behind 

And fin'lly I've made up my mind 

So let the mem'ries stay away 

And think about today 

I'm leavin' yesterday behind 

'Cause now I'll try to live my life once more 

The way I did before 

May be, may be not…

“I’m happy for you…”

Do I really mean it? May be, may be not.  Those were the last words I utter when I found out that he’s with someone new.  How can I be happy for him if I am still in the process of letting go and moving on without him.  I won’t cry, why would I? It’s long been over and there is no need to cry.  I just remembered one friend telling me that I should not let myself be left here and be miserable. I should give others a chance to love me and I should also give myself a chance to love others. Galing ng payo mo inay… salamat. Ngayon I will really move on and leave the past behind…

once a dream
then a shattered truth
once a hope of love
then the emptiness of alone
once a promise made
then just another lie
once it was love
Now it is goodbye

once there were smiles
now i drown in tears
once there was forever
now just empty years
once i thought i would hold you
now i sleep all alone
once i thought it was for always
now i know i should have known

once i was a dreamer
now i know the score
once i would wait endlessly
now i have closed the door
once you had a fool to love you
now your game is up
Once you did
Now you dont
Then i just gave up